"i tell everyone i'm fine, when in reality i hate myself"
do you know? everyday, i'm ready to get up and start my day. time to put on that fake smile and pretend like i'm okay.
dear everyone who always read my story.
i write to you from my heart. from the depth of my soul, i cry out to you to listen my despair. over the past weeks i have been desperately and have been in hospital, my worst fear has come true, i have pain. i see death it self standing before me. each day my body grows weaker and weaker drifting further into never ending sleep. i am so afraid, so very afraid of what lay before me. i try to make sense of what is happen to me, but there's no sense at all.
i'm cry from the depth of my heart and soul to be saved from the sadness and destruction of my body. i'm cry for allah to help me trough this despair, hold my hand in the darkness, but my allah can't be found.
feeling and though rush through my mind as it seeks a reason for this pain and suffering. i want to hode, run, but my legs will not carry me. i ask ever since man has been on this earth, what is life? what lay after life? i will not die peacefully y friend, my illness will not permit that, but eventually, if it be allah will, my mind and body will feel peace as allah holds me in his arms again.
Sabtu, 24 Mei 2014
Kamis, 22 Mei 2014
43 Million children exposed to tobacco smoke
Think you are burning the future of your child...
head of indonesian parliamentary forum for population and development aisyah hamid baidlowi has revealed that around 97 million indonesian inhabitants are routinely exposed to tobacco smoke at their homes.
of this said amount, 43 million are children.
the prevalence of smoking in indonesian, she said, was ranked fifth among countries in the world with the top consumption rate of tobacco, which has rapidly increased since 1970's.
especially among young people above 15 years of age, the plevalence has increased from 26,9 per cent in 1995 to 31,5 per cent in 2004.
in addition, the usage of tobacco has long-term effects and lung cancer is the highest cause of death in the world.
"The world health organization (WHO) has predicted that by 2020, diseases that tobacco cause will result in the death of 4,8 million people every year in the world," said Aisyah during a seminar of indonesian youth as the main target of rapid cigarette marketing: should they be protected??
head of indonesian parliamentary forum for population and development aisyah hamid baidlowi has revealed that around 97 million indonesian inhabitants are routinely exposed to tobacco smoke at their homes.
of this said amount, 43 million are children.
the prevalence of smoking in indonesian, she said, was ranked fifth among countries in the world with the top consumption rate of tobacco, which has rapidly increased since 1970's.
especially among young people above 15 years of age, the plevalence has increased from 26,9 per cent in 1995 to 31,5 per cent in 2004.
in addition, the usage of tobacco has long-term effects and lung cancer is the highest cause of death in the world.
"The world health organization (WHO) has predicted that by 2020, diseases that tobacco cause will result in the death of 4,8 million people every year in the world," said Aisyah during a seminar of indonesian youth as the main target of rapid cigarette marketing: should they be protected??
hates school
i hate school. i cannot stand my school so i skip it almost every day. luckily, i am a smart person and i'm in all of the advanced classes and don't have reputation as a rebel. only the people who really know me know about my strange feelings. my parents don't care - they don't even mention it if i don't go to school. what i end up doing is sleeping all day and then staying up all night talking to my imagination. i get behind in my work and when i try to go back to school i get a bunch of crap from my teacher and all of my friends juat laugh. i just get so depressed when i think about it. i have given up on trying to go back and now am considering dropping out altogether, but i really don;t want to do that because i realize it would ruin my life. i don't want to go back at all but i also don't want to ruin my life. i am so confused and i have really tried to go back and just can't take it. what should i do? :)
Help me and my family
my family don't get along. i mean, it's like we all hate each other. it's my dad, mum, me, and my brother. i'm the eldest. we all have certain problems. my dad wants to quit smoking, so his really stressed out. i am really selfish ( i just can't help it). my mum is too bossy. she think she is better than the rest of us and that she is the only one who helps my dad. and sometimes my mum is kind of abusive and depressed. we always start fights everyone and she's really spoiled. and my dad doesn't yell at her for doing things wrong and when he does, she laughs at him.
my brother makes messes and doesn't clean them up. i really want to help because i don't like being upset all the time and having everyone hate everyone else. even when we starts to get along, someone will say something to upset someone else. just help me and my family.
my brother makes messes and doesn't clean them up. i really want to help because i don't like being upset all the time and having everyone hate everyone else. even when we starts to get along, someone will say something to upset someone else. just help me and my family.
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